VIOLENT SPLENDOUR   

TODAY I LOOKED IN A MIRROR. NOT JUST A QUICK GLANCE TO FIX MY

HAIR

BUT A FULL LONG LOOK. WHO IS THIS STRANGER LOOKING OUT AT ME? NO

ONE I

RECALL AND SHE IS MUCH OLDER THAN I.

HER FACE IS ROUND AND SHE HAS WRINKLES BY HER EYES. THERE IS A

DEEP

FURROW EMBEDDED IN HER FOREHEAD. YET HER EYES ARE FAMILIAR AND

PROJECT A

CHILD LIKE QUALITY. AS MY EYES TRAVEL DOWN HER NAKED BODY I AM

STRUCK BY

THE ROADWAY OF SCARS RUNNING IN ALL DIRECTIONS. AMID THE CHAOS

OF LINES

LIES A HUMMINGBIRD AND A BUTTERFLY. HER BELLY IS LARGE AND HANGS

AS IF

TO PROTECT HER MOST INTIMATE PARTS. THE THIGHS ARE SCARRED IN

ROWS OF

THREES. WHY THREES? HER CALVES ARE LARGE, SHE MUST BE A RUNNER,

BUT FROM

WHAT?

I STEP BACK TO GET A FULL VIEW. THERE IS SOMETHING IN HER PLUMP

ROUNDNESS THAT FEELS HOMEY. YOU KNOW, THAT KIND OF PERSON

YOU’D LIKE TO

CURL UP IN HER LAP AND LET THE HUGENESS ENVELOP YOU. TO SLEEP THE

SLEEP

OF A CHILD IN IT’S MOTHER’S ARMS WHILE IN THE DISTANCE HER HEART

BEAT

KEEPS TIME WITH YOURS.

CLOSE THE WOUNDS, COVER THE SCARS, AND SHE IS ME, IN ALL HER

VIOLENT

SPLENDOR, SHE IS ME.

PAM

Previously published in The Cutting Edge