After so many years of seeing the horror, shock, and fear

Hearing anger, threats, disgust and disdain

The reactions of others made it seem quite clear

That I was completely alone in the form taken by my pain.

The isolation grew stronger each day

The message that I was different filled me with shame.

It increased my belief that there were sins for which I must

pay

And that for my suffering, I had only myself to blame.

The pain clouded my vision, and kept the knowledge from changing

But finally one day I was able to see

That the message was false, my beliefs were rearranging

I was not fully alone, there were others like me.

What I never dared hope for I now see is true

Other people share the feelings I once thought were unique to

                me.

Less ashamed, I am able to take a brighter view

And allow myself to start to feel worthy and free.

                                                                Nancy